Monday, 16 November 2020

Wonderful Emily and all in the round!

 



Last evening I enjoyed my first gig for over a year. Well not really; The Covid-friendly equivalent of a gig. This was the livestream performance by Emily Barker of her latest album from the Brunel goods yard at Stroud station.

There was of course no audience. Not present anyway. A few hundred did sign up for the event. But they watched on their devices and remotely. In my case on a deskbound laptop with wireless cans.

Emily was brilliant, the album is brilliant and her band was brilliant. But thinking since, I have become far more impressed by the commitment and professionalism required to achieve so much.

Consider. The band was not on a stage but arranged in a circle at some three metre separations. Six band and Emily so a circle of about 4-5 metres diameter. So it took some neat sound engineering to take those streams, reassemble them in traditional form and deal with environmental sound effects – Emily centre, artists to left and right – to produce an aurally correct stereophonic performance. Respect, man, respect.

Consider. There were no cheering eager people in the auditorium to spark the adrenalin on entry. The band chose to stroll on in the traditional way but it was to a silent room. Whatever prep Emily and her team went through to psyche themselves up for public performance would have to have been doubly effective this time. Respect eh?

And consider again. There was no feedback. Every artist lives off the adrenalin rush of response. Those magic moments in particular when an audience jumps decibels beyond enthusiastic and roars its approval. That is the confirming moment that powers the artists onward. Its absence last evening was palpable and tragic.

Yet Emily never once slipped from her accustomed and enchanting self – cool, keen, bang on pitch, never over-breathed, and delivering the same soul-searing commitment to every bar, every verse, every chorus. And the band was equally brilliant. It was momentarily possible to see flickers of uncertainty on their faces as the camera roved. After all whoever sat in a circle to deliver? In their ears the sound must have been different.

Could it be better? There is no way a band can see a remote audience – too complex to deliver, even if, Zoom-like it could be spread across screens it would mean little. But could they pick up the audio of our responses and feed them, aggregated into the hall? It would need encouraging the audience to clap, shout or whistle as if at a concert. And to ensure it sounded right and timely to the band. And would screen fatigue mean a dreadful silence was an inevitable risk? Maybe, but it would be worth the trial perhaps.

But then a vaccine is at least in view. Gigs will start again. But for now livestream is the thing. Brilliant work Emily.

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Monday, 12 October 2020

Every breath I take...

Now what should the next line be?

I am grateful for? Well of course.

Is surprisingly inadequate? Yes, that too of course.

Took a lot of effort? Yes, well naturally. I have severe COPD.

The only point I am making perhaps is that when the dreaded exacerbation arrives it is always a shock. This time I had a cold. Nothing special but for us COPD types any cold is special. This one really hit home.

I took anti-biotics and they did work - a bit. But since the last event (an amazing year ago) I have been diagnosed with potential congestive heart failure just to add to the mix. And with a high BP and pulse it does not take much to kick me over into that dreadful feeling of panic when you find you are not in control; that you are fighting for air, not just gasping.

So onto the steroids now to add to the diuretics needed for the ticker.

I know that this is how it goes. I am 77, I was diagnosed with emphysema and bronchiectasis 12 years ago and am now number 4, severe ,on the FEV1 scale. I have strained the ticker for too long now and it is showing signs of needing an MoT, except that is not available.

I am teetering on the brink of oxygen. I resist since it is too much of a signifier of the end game but I shall have to comply in due course. The idea of so many hours a day stuck in a groove is not appealing.

This year has been hard for us all of course. Coronavirus has changed our last years much for the worse. Shielding was hard for me and my wife, my carer. I started out logging all that went on. The old hack in me wanted to and my blog , One Man Went to Moan, started to fill up. Then I despaired of it all - the mess of PPE, the cruelty of the care homes, the criminal corruption of contracts, a Government of ineptitude and carelessness. I gave up.

I just checked at tottenhamtyke.blogspot.com/ and July 27 was my last effort. Few read it anyway.

Now I am trying another dose of anti-bs, steroids and sitting still. At least I can type. To carry on the song theme, They can't take that away from me.